http://peekinside.wordpress.com/2008/07/25/what-i-don%e2%80%99t-know-about-what-i-don%e2%80%99t-know/ just me. here. taking one day at a time. Fri, 15 Aug 2008 22:02:24 +0000 http://wordpress.com/ hourly 1 http://peekinside.wordpress.com/2008/07/25/what-i-don%e2%80%99t-know-about-what-i-don%e2%80%99t-know/#comment-28 Arial Ray Mon, 28 Jul 2008 14:11:38 +0000 http://peekinside.wordpress.com/?p=324#comment-28 I've felt the same way all my life - as if I was holding myself back, as if there was a door that I just could not go through. In the last year, I've realized how much fear I had, about everything. Success, my sexuality, my body image - everything. I've been working through it - it's brought incredible changes into my life, and there are more to come, but there in no way that I'm ever going back to the person who hides from everything. I like being real, and actually being able to feel. I’ve felt the same way all my life – as if I was holding myself back, as if there was a door that I just could not go through. In the last year, I’ve realized how much fear I had, about everything. Success, my sexuality, my body image – everything. I’ve been working through it – it’s brought incredible changes into my life, and there are more to come, but there in no way that I’m ever going back to the person who hides from everything. I like being real, and actually being able to feel.

]]> http://peekinside.wordpress.com/2008/07/25/what-i-don%e2%80%99t-know-about-what-i-don%e2%80%99t-know/#comment-27 leo Sat, 26 Jul 2008 00:27:34 +0000 http://peekinside.wordpress.com/?p=324#comment-27 damn, those conversations are so crazy and intense. i have to echo your friend, though, on the transparency thing. i've spent a lot of time trying to hide the things i thought i 'had' to hide, the messed-up undeservingness etc. but the people who cared saw me, for real, all along; and the people who didn't care, well, they didn't care, and they don't now, either, if that makes sense. or that's what i've gathered, from trying just one of those doorknobs in my own life. damn, those conversations are so crazy and intense. i have to echo your friend, though, on the transparency thing. i’ve spent a lot of time trying to hide the things i thought i ‘had’ to hide, the messed-up undeservingness etc. but the people who cared saw me, for real, all along; and the people who didn’t care, well, they didn’t care, and they don’t now, either, if that makes sense. or that’s what i’ve gathered, from trying just one of those doorknobs in my own life.

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